This has been such a bad day.

Gettin' Crafty!

Look what I made!!!  Sewed them together with my own two hands!  I also attached a safety pin on the backs of both so I can pin them wherever I please!  Super proud of myself :)

 

 

What rain?

 

 

Gorgeous tree. I love it.

 



Decemberrrrr

 

 

 

I am exhausted, coughing, listening to Snow Patrol and uploading pics that have represented my month of December thus far. Enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am so done

trying.

YOU are the reason our relationship is the way it is.  I can't keep being the only one fighting to make things better.  So I won't.  I'm done.

Is there any way to call the post office and ask them to cancel a delivery?  uggggg

Weeknd

Seems like pain and regret are your bestfriends.

I really don't even know what day it is...

The last week consisted of [more] November babies, work parties and endless laughter.

NVO.  PIC.  My Meatball!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

and really pretty flowers

 

 



 

"It's bittersweet and hard to say goodbye to yall, but like I always say, with every end comes a new beginning."

Words cannot express how sad I am that today was Jack's Mannequin last show.  Even worse the fact that I was not there.  Jack's Mannequin literally put into words everything I felt at 16 years old.  And for that I will always be grateful.  Can't wait to see what Andrew will do next.  Whatever it is, it will be amazing.

Just a few of my faves:

 

 

&& today I make absolutely no sense

Things  i've been constantly thinking about:

You can’t blame anyone except for yourself for your failures. When will you learn that no one else is responsible for the choices you make or for the effort (or lack of) you put forth? This seems like a lesson you should have learned already.  But you haven't gotten it yet, have you?

And who will be there when it really matters?  THAT is what i'm always left wondering.

I can finally let you go.  I won't be looking for you round these parts anymore.  You were just a figment of my imagination.  That is all.

Things have a funny way of (sometimes) working out the way I want them to unexpectedly.  Sweet and simple is what I wanted and it looks like that is just what I will have.

I dont' know why today has been so H A R D.

Ironically enough i've had this song stuck in my head all day.....

 

 

 

"22 is like the worst idea that I've ever had"

 

When is the best time to decide to let go?


Is it at 7 am on a Monday morning?


It just might be.

I am so over this "not being able to sleep" shit.  It is getting exhausting! I'm about to just drive around the whole damn city until I fall asleep in my car!

"Hipster by heart, but I can tell you how the streets feel"

 

I swear i'm getting this tatted.

 

I hate obsessing over things.





And now I hate the fact that I hate obsessing over things.



ahhhhH!

This girl feels like she needs to go to church......or somethin'.  I need to be enlightened.  Or take a step back and get some perspective.  I need someone with something interesting to offer (or say) to come stumblin' into my life right about now.  I'm going crazy inside of my head.

I just wanted to feel....something.

Pet Peeve: Waiting on people



& when YOU like to act like a little bitch.

Fall is in the air....

While my weekend consisted of so many fun things like the La Mesa Farmers Market, shopping and the Adams Avenue Street Fair this upcoming week will consist of nothing but school, work, school and more work.  Wahhhh.

On a brighter note:  I got some shopping done for Baby Adriana!  I can't wait to meet her!  (hopefull not till December though ;) )


Oh, and i'm obsessed with bows right now.

 

 

You realize you miss Vegas when....

You get a text from your friend with a picture and a caption that reads.....

"Two niggas, one cup"

Oh Vegas how I miss thee : /

Sunshine and cool drinks...

 

 

 

 

America always acts like they're everyones saving grace.  Every other countries protector.  When in reality all we are is two-faced. 

I'm STILL awake.   I don't even know if I should bother going to sleep.  I dream of sleeping.  But these days I dream while awake.

Sometimes....just sometimes I really do feel alone in all of this.  And sometimes I truly do believe that you can't count on anyone (not even family) but yourself.

sleepless nights on sleepless nights.  the wicked did come. i am exhausted and i can't even go to sleep until the clock strikes tomorrow.

Something wicked this way comes...

I can FEEL it in this change [of weather]. 

Caught Between Stations

I don't know what it is about this movie that makes me love it so much.

Some nights, I always win.

&&it was a night filled with mojitos, flasks, mustache tattoos, Chiddy Bang, pink gorilla, and FUN.

So let's set the world on fire ♥

Soakin' it in

Summers slowly winding down.  So i'm heading beach side and gettin' my drink on as much as possible before August 21st. LIVEITUP.

This has been the longest Monday E V E R.

I wish I could just skip tomorrow and wake up Tuesday.  I don't want to wake up to tomorrow.  I don't know if I can deal with tomorrow.  I'm so disconnected with my feelings that I don't know how to deal with others (especially in times of grief).  God give me the right words to help those around me feel at ease tomorrow. 

The people that make my life complete...

This family is love.

For someone who is always fiendin' for change I get anxious at the thought of getting a new desk!  Or even changing my hair.  The more I want things to change the more I want them to stay the same.  At times I find it hard to pick up the pieces and move forward.  I don't know how to put myself back together yet.

Week END

Pool side, beach bound, Wicked off Broadway, IB Pier,  Work, Cupcake nails.  Yep, it's Summer.

It's moments like these that remind you how important family really is and how precious your time with them is.

I finally met up with an old friend for the first time in a year! And it felt great.  Had a nice dinner, awesome drinks (which included a Vodka slurppe) and  my very first trip to the Imerial Beach Pier!

The only way out is through.
The only way out is through.
The only way out is through.
Take a breath.
You can do this.

"I love you, the same way I learned how to ride a bike...

...scared.  But reckless."

This is still my favorite thing to listen to.

I'm about that sushi life...

Erryday Erryday

& tonight there is no sleep...

just music.

Wrapping up the week

This week consisted of beach goin', pizza makin', alcohol drankin' and coffe sippin'.