Love yourself

I constantly struggle between holding on and letting go.  Although this is true about many parts of my life this is especially true when it comes to the people in my life.  I always feel like I owe someone something and because of that I stick around longer than I should or let them affect me for longer than they should.  But the truth is that the only person I owe something to is myself.  I owe myself the best quality of life.  And that means that I owe it to myself to surround myself with honest, authentic, caring and trustworthy people.  The type of people who will help me grow and be better.  The type of people who will be there through the good and the bad not just when it is convenient.  I owe it to myself to no longer allow myself to be in situations (school, job, routine) just because it is easy and comfortable.  During service the pastor said "It's easy to look good when life is easy"  and my Momma didn't raise no easy girl! XO

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Sometimes, I really miss some people who used to be a huge part of my life.  And I often wonder if it is my pride that keeps us apart.  But then I remember that it is your inability to care or try as much as I did.  I remind myself that it is imperative to know what your time is worth.  And that not everyone deserves a second chance.  Or in this case a 10th, 20th, or 30th chance.

Remember that all relationships and friendships take work.  But that work should be coming from both sides, not just one.

I have to take a minute to reflect on the last couple of weeks.  My new job has had me feeling all types of ways.  I have been feeling anxious, nervous,  ill-prepared, frustrated, annoyed and probably at least a dozen other types of emotions all in the span of about three weeks.  However, yesterday I was reminded that in the face of all these other (sometimes not so great) emotions I have a constant feeling of satisfaction.  Satisfaction that i'm doing my best every time I go to work and every time I interact with the kids.  It literally makes everything worth it when you get to make them laugh, or teach them something as small as a new word, or just to see them comfortable in the moment.  My life has seriously been a frenzy of tests, papers, work, SDSU exams and transcripts, NO sleep but I can't forget to be so incredibly  grateful to Him for giving me an opportunity to move forward and to grow.  I cannot thank my family enough for being so supportive and not taking it personal when i'm in a bad mood because i'm tired.  And I am so lucky to have an amazing group of friends that are happy for my new journey and are understanding in the reasons why I can't see them right now as much as I want to.  All of these people make this transition easier.  All of their support means the world to me.  And I have to constantly remind myself that it is when I am most uncomfortable and out of my element that I will grow.  Thank you ♥

You can't start getting lazy when you have the finish line within sight. Gotta stay motivated, dedicated and focused.

#5moreweeks

What is Spring Break?

When it hits you that this week you will be working 4 double shifts and 1 triple shift -__-

I have to be thankful for the Tuesday beach day I got to enjoy yesterday and I have to be grateful for the new opportunities I am being given and this new journey I am about to begin.

I just hope that somewhere in there I get to find some time to sleep!

I am taking the time to enjoy these small victories instead of letting the unknown overwhelm me and take away these great moments.  I opt to focus on the love, blessings and support that I have in my life. Life is changing and that scares me.  But the best part is that it also excites me.

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Sometimes teachers know what they're talking about...

The second day of class my sociology professor made a reference about living life like a dog instead of a cat.  And his reasoning behind it makes absolute sense.... :)

"Don't live life like a cat, live it like a dog because the way dogs live teaches us the following:

1. Enjoy daily activities.  Make sure you are doing things that bring you happiness on a daily basis.  Find joy in the routine that you will inevitably incorporate in some way or another into your life.

2.Live in the moment.  It's good to have plans for yourself but it is also good to be present in everything you are doing.  Like eating, or running or jumping around.

3.  Surround yourself with people you love.  Make sure you have people in your life that make you want to jump up and lick their face, not leave the room and stay at arms length (those damn cats!)

4. And remember that if you ever need something in life....just bark."