I kick it old school.

I prefer to burn people mix tapes.  You know, create that perfect playlist that consist of tracks from their favorite artist at the moment and then thrown in some of those guilty pleasure songs that you would never publically admit to singing along to in your car.  Then there would be those songs by that amazing artist that they need to listen to (because you're somehow convinced that their lyrics will change their lives forever, the same way they changed yours) Because you know that as soon as they listen to the first base line drop they'll be in love.

And after it's all done initializing & burning I would [in]appropriately title the cd (in red or blue sharpie of course) something like "Bone Jamz" or something like that.

And why do I love this process so much?
Because sometimes you can say more about yourself with a song, than with your own words.

Don't make someone a priority, when you're only their option

In order for any relationship to work, both parties have to make/put in effort.  It's extremely unfair to assume that one party will always go the extra mile, make the sacrifices, make the time to make the relationship work.  Because when this continuously happens there will be a moment when said party just says "damn, why am I the only one who goes out of my way for this person (these people)?" And then they won't.

Currently my life is all about this...

Lately my life has revolved around my desk & computer.  I've been so busy sending emails, Christmas cards, cutting things out, reading, book-marking, posting, wrapping, taping updating etc etc.

Call me old fashioned, call me Susie Homemaker, whatever!  Everyone knows I L O V E baking!  I'm literally driving myself a little bit nuts trying to finalize the menu for Christmas day! I'm out of my mind I tell you!  I've been going through all of my cookbooks, recipe books and numerous websites for new things to try out!  And i'm still not sure what i'll be cooking!

I've literally watched this movie about 4 times in the past 2 days.  This is one of my favorite comics/cartoons of all times and hadn't realized that my sisters have never watched it.  It literally warmed my heart!

Christmas is right around the corner and even though there is so much left to do I love this time of year so much!  However, next year i'm MAKING everyone Christmas presents dammit!

I cannot seem to comprehend how the heck I seem to  function better between the hours of 10pm-3:30am.  It's as if I just woke up from sleeping a full 8 hours.  I'm full of energy, my creative juices are flowing and i'm getting things DONE.  Finally finishing tedious tasks that I had failed to accomplish throughout my regular 16 hour work/school day. Is something wrong with me?

I forgot to mention...

We went to Roswell for Thankgiving this year and it was probably one of the most rewarding Thanksgiving's from the last couple of years. I got to spend some much needed quality time with my grandparents, my cousins and my other grandma's. We cooked so much food! Shared so many memories and laughed so much! The trip was definitley a success and I can't wait to go back.

I conquered the:

8 East, 10 East and the 70.

The great states of Arizona and New Mexico

The horendous 14 hour drive!

Time Travel

&&the Tahoe.

I fell in love with the quaintness of Main St and the residence at 1010 North Missouri Ave.

&& I was humbled by the hugs, kisses, smiles and tears of my grandparents.

Currently: Wasting time writing this

Currently consuming: Pinkberry

Currently watching:  Sons of Anarchy

Currently on rotation: Take Care -Drake

Currently thinking about:  Roswell, NM

One week till we leave for Roswell for Thanksgiving and I am soooooo excited.nervous.stressed out.tired.busy.stressed out.antsy. and oh yeah stressed out!  I've got too much on my plate and this past week and half has felt so strange!  I wish the school semseter was OVER but at the same time I wish it hadn't passed by so quickly.  Weekend where are you?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!

I've been heeeeeelllllaaaaa slacking these past couple of weeks!  And that needs to S T O P!  I vow to make this week a more productive one than the the last one (twoorthree)!  Looking forward to LA Wednesday night, Disneyland on Thursday and Jack's Mannequin in Pomona on Saturday!  Lets do this!

Slow it down

This whole concept of time has been playing tricks on me lately.

The days seem to drag on while moving quicker than usual.
These past couple of weeks have gone by in a blink of an eye.
Hell, this whole year has gone by in a blink of an eye.
&& I need it to slow down.
I want to enjoy the holidays and the remainder of the year not have them/it rush right past me.
I want time to stop.

It's the middle of the week...

&& here are my current obsessions:

1. I'm With You -Red Hot Chili Peppers

Not only is their video for "The Adventures of Rain Dance Maggie" amazing, but I love this album the more and more I listen to it.

2. The new BCBGMAXAZRIA fragrance

It smells yummy! And just the something new I was looking for!

3. My Grandma

The strongest, most selfless, patient person I know.  I love you most of all.

Rivers Cuomo + Steve Aoki =

PURE PERFECTION!

Steve Aoki's album is probably MY most anticipated album of 2011.

So after a couple weeks of delay here is the official video for "Earthquakey People"

IT'S TIME TO DANCE KIDS!

There will always be laughter

There have been many tears and much frustration this week.  But amidst all of that there has also been so much laughter.  So thank you to everything and everyone that  put a smile on my face this week.  Catching up with old friends, award assemblies, dinners and movies.  Here's to having a great weekend and to looking forward to a better week!

We all have our moments....this one was mine.

Obsession

The moment I saw these cuffs I became obsessed with them and had to have them!

The grey one on the bottom says "Dreamer" while the cream one on the top says "♥ Life" both by BCBGeneration.  Aren't they soo cute?

I have a sleeping problem.  The problem is i'm not sleeping.

"Banks got bailed out, we got SOLD out"

"We are the 99%!"

"Who's streets? OUR streets!"

Just some of the things being chanted last night, while an estimated 1,400 people marched the streets of Downtown to mark the beginning of Occupy San Diego.  I was one of them. 

Almost three years ago, I voted for a man who promised me change.  A man who sparked hope for a better future, not only in myself but a nation.  And here I sit three years later and despite everything, I still believe in that change.  But now I know that change will not come from a single man, a political party, or a state representative.  The change that we need will come from US!!! The 99 %.  At 21 years young I have never felt more inclined to be part of something.  "San Diego, today we looked beautiful!"

Occupy San Diego

Friday, October 7, 2011

Two More days!

Here's a letter for you, but the words get confused...

Sunday's best.

Oktoberfest on Friday with my LA loves&family.
Saturday at the driving range, work & family dinner.

Sunday's best when spent at the Q with a great friend to cheer on your home team to another win.

I wish all weekends were like this.

&&I L O V E S U N D A Y' S B E S T

I pride in my ability to detach from things.  To know me is to know that I am very good at moving on.


This terrifies me.

The wait is over....

While many were waiting for someone else's album to drop today, i've been waiting for this one.  It's their 6th studio album, and first album in 8 years!  So excited to see them in only 9 days!!!  Making SO CAL proud one record at a time....♥

See ya next year!

Until next season Petco Park and Padres fans....we still  B E L I E V E in SD ♥

I definitley forgot what it was like to have Sunday's off.  To be able to sleep in, have breakfast with family and sit and watch a football game.  I need to find a job where I get weekends off and all major holidays (well at least Christmas).

#justsayin'

I hope Lebron drives this car....

because if not that person is a dumb chunk!

"There are some things you just shouldn’t do. For example: Pouring champagne on the heads of handicapped New York Giants fans. Not a good idea, but hey, Lady Gaga is certifiably from Neptune, so the rules don’t apply to… him/her/it.

In Laker-land, there has long been the assumed understanding that Laker Nation does not support LeBron James under any circumstance. Is this ridiculous? Of course it is, but it doesn’t make it any less true. Sports fandom as a whole – vehemently rooting for people you have absolutely no personal ties to whatsoever – is ridiculous in itself, but that certainly hasn’t stopped any one of us from wishing unspeakable things on the entire city of Boston.
Even so, this guy (or girl) is the leading candidate for either the worst Laker fan ever, or the worst LeBron fan ever. Whatever the case, we can only assume they either lost a bet, a succession of bets, or my personal theory, this is a picture of Bill Simmons car, and this is his way of taunting Laker fans. I mean, there’s no way this is one of you guys out there in Laker Nation, right? …"

Fuckin' Hipster

"I just ate an egg-white omelet with broccoli and kale for breakfast, so I'll be walking around all cocky and morally-superior for the rest of the day. Be warned. Smug hipster breakfast of champions now where's my ironic t-shirt?"-Mark Hoppus

For some reason, when you get back from being gone, things feel different.  Almost as if things have changed and you can't quite put your finger on what or how.  Lets be honest, not much changes in the span of three days.  So maybe it isn't the place that changed, it's you.

Where's the island?

We're going to Catalina!!!!

It looks so gorgeous, I might not come back home!

Someone needs to come over and smack me! Because it's 10:30 and i'm barley going to start working on my study guide...well I will in like 10 minutes....

It's hard to concentrate on something when your mind is somewhere else.; && in this case my mind is EVERYWHERE else.  Why must I insist on getting my entire life in order all in the same day?  especially when I have a test tomorrow?  Sounds to me like someone's trying to avoid something...
Ohhhhwhooooocarrrrres!

Sundays

"Ladies you know what today is....the OFFICIAL start of Shut The Fuck Up Sundays.....Football season is back!"- Kevin ♥

hahahaha!

His words melt my heart

"Home is a strange concept, one that I have meditated upon from a very young age. I am a true believer in being proud of where you come from. If my travels have taught me anything it's that places, like people, are a combination of flawed and beautiful, but most are worthy of one's time, exploration, forgiveness and defense. No place is perfect, but then again, what truly beautiful thing is?

 Where I come from is no exception. Still, for every fake breast and botox injection there are infinite grains of sand for me to rest my feet upon. For every strip mall, off ramp and teenage mercedes benz driver there is a kid ditching school in pursuit of that noble, perfect wave. When I left here for Los Angeles I was feeble, injured and shaken. A worn textile with all fraying edges. I had not quit believing in myself all together, but I drifted that direction with alarming regularity.
I say these things because life should be a conversation. I say them because what I choose to project of myself is too often a fraction of my personal truth and it exhausts me. Still, I cannot deny that in losing myself I often learn more about the life I should be living and begin living it. I'd like to think I am in such a moment now. If I didn't drift so freely and occasionally pack without my compass, this home of mine would be useless and my bones, though weary still, would be without direction. We are where we come from. Shame is useless and running is a fools errand. I am a tourist of this planet but on a cellular level I am a Southern Californian, and I am proud.  There have been countless moments in the past five years I thought I had forgotten who I was. It occurs to me now that I was simply in the process of remembering."

♥

New week....

another chance to start over.  Start this week off with a much better attitude than i've had these past couple of days.  Start it off with a smile and a positive outlook on the week ahead.  I will try to not sweat the small stuff and work with what god gives me.

#letsdothis

It's easier said than done.  God,  please help me accept the things (&people) I cannot change.

How To Be Alone

I wish I could be there for them in their time of grief they way they [she] was there for me, in mine.  They say that "absense makes the heart grow fonder..." well it also makes losses like this a little more bearable.  When death happens you always think about the things you should have said, the things you should have done, the time you should have spent etc.  Right now all I can be is grateful for what we did have.  When death happens it makes me think that there has to be something bigger than us.  A better place to look forward to, a bigger picture to complete.  There has to be.

I'm so dissapointed in our world.  I hate turning on the news now.  I hate that election year is coming even more.  What has happened to our humanity?  When did we stop caring between right and wrong?  When did we stop caring about each other?


Where do we begin?

Definition

What did I learn from yesterdays ordeal?
I learned to always make sure I have my key before I lock  ANY door.  I learned that JJ is afraid of climbing ladders (especially if they're old and on a slope) and I learned that Carlos is a life saver.  And I also learned (better yet was reminded) that some people will never change and that I should stop being surprised by their actions.  All in all what started out as nothing short of a disasterous afternoon ended with nothing but laughs and smiles in the early hours of the next morning.  And today I am thankful for my friends.  The people that teach me on a daily basis something new about the world or myself.  Who (although not always an easy task) make me want to open my eyes (and heart) to new things and ideas.  And for the friends that I can call when I lock myself out of my room and need someone to climb up a ladder and in through my window.

"Your reminding me of life lessons, you ain't showing me nothing new girl."-Marcus


Moral of the story: Remember what you ALREADY know.

I W A N T T H E M

WTF just happened?

Midnight Morning

I must have been an owl in a past life.  That is the only explanation for how alert I am at 123 in the AM.  Or maybe its because I know that the world looks better at this time of day, and I just don't want to miss it...

"Drake probably writes all his songs at night. Makes sense how quiet the world can get and how loud your train of thought becomes."

Marvins Room

I don't fall in love with people, I fall in love with what comes out of their mouth.

I mustache you a question, but i'll shave it for later...



Goodnight.

Question Existing

Is the universe infinite? Or is its end simultaneously its beginning, like a closed loop?

There is nothing I hate more than people who lie [especially to me]. SMH.

From citizen high to citizen low...

& today I feel broken.
And it's only 10 AM, good freakin' job.

"Sometimes in order to connect to that part of yourself that remembers how to be inspired, you have to stay up so late that your mind forgets about all the garbage of daily life. Like working while dreaming." Goodnight.

Where's my telescope at?

Lately i've been getting caught up in trivial shit. That stops now.  It's time to get my head back up in the clouds galaxy.

I better find your heart

I keep wishing I was somewhere else.

Pacific time is T H E best time.

I hate politics.

What is wrong with the 'American Way'?
The real question should be: What is right about the 'American Way'?

WE spend money we do not have, increasing our debt as a country and as individuals (put it on my credit card please)  We have become so self involved that we fail to look at the big picture and only care about what will benefit us in the moment (not what will benefit everyone in the long run.)  We've stopped caring about each other.  The sentiment of sharing a cup of sugar with your neighbor does not exist in our society anymore.  Our individual success and prosperity will be at whose expense?

Our Education system keeps taking blow after blow to it's budget, but there have been ZERO salary cuts to our state representatives.  Where are our priorities?  The 2% that has it all, wants more.  And the other 98% is left with no hope.  It is time we give each other H O P E.  It is ignorant for us to think that one man alone can keep the hope alive for millions, so the C H A N G E we can believe in starts with us. 

So get informed!!! Ask questions, read, be read to!!! No one is beneath knowing what is going on in their Coutnry, State, City and neighborhood..  If you disagree, SPEAK UP!!! Question everything and everyone.  Have an opinion on everything!  Get involved!! Start caring!!!

We need to remember what is important:  Living a good life as opposed to THE good life.

My biggest fear is doing something insignificant with my life.  Doing something that will only add to the worlds problems not ease or help fix them.

What are you afraid of?

I'm restless.
Itching for something mind blowing.
Something that is more than just skin deep. 
I am yearning for something, someone, somewhere with more substance. 
And it's starting to look like I won't find that here.

Summer Solstice

Summertime & the livin's easy ♥

Rant!

Do me a favor and stop worrying about MY realtionship(s) and work on your own!  It's not my fault that at this stage in life you probably realize that your all alone!  But you have no one else to thank but yourself for isolating yourself and driving everyone away.

#takecareofYOURbusiness&stayoutofmine

What does it mean when you feel more at home on someones couch, than you do in your own bed?

If your going to cry, get out.

Tear-    2.this fluid appearing in or flowing from the eye as the result of emotion, especially grief.

To know me is to know that I dont cry...unless i'm mad that is.  Normal people cry as a form of releasing emotions such as joy or sadness.  Me?  I cry when I get absolutley, 100% out of my mind enraged!  Which then leads to my inability to properly articulate my enraged emotions to the party at fault.  Some might confuse these tears as hints of weakness, sensitivity or a slight chance that I may care about what you said or have to say.  I don't.  So for Christmas I would like to have my tear ducts permanently removed because this whole 'crying in the middle of an argument' is NOT working for me.

Writers block impedes!

I swear to god I have had writers block for the past couple of years.  I used to be able to formulate cohesive thoughts and somehow put them down on paper.  Now it seeems that every thought I have is fleeting and I can never quite articulate what's going on in my head.  So, I then decide to pull out my camera and I begin to snap, snap away at objects, people and places.  But when the image is developed it serves as no representation of my thoughts.  It's just a picture.  Of a person, place and thing.  I am so uninspired!  Where does one go to find inspiration?

Words to live by...

"I like to look at the negative things in life as lessons learned not ways to bring me down."

Life isn't always perfect, and bad things do happen to good people but that's just the way things go. The only thing we can do is learn from every person we encounter, every obstacle that comes across our path and every situation that arises (including the good, bad and ugly). These are the things that makes us stronger, make us better individuals and allow us to appreciate the 'good' things in life.

#liveandlearn

Starting Over.

What's that saying people use? "Out with the old, in with the new..." I just deleted over a years worth of entries. It's time to purge old thoughts and make room for new ones, better ones. Everyone gets lost once in a while. Breathe deeply, and remember that every day is a chance to start over.

#thankyouMonday